|Born 6 weeks early at 4lbs 7oz|
|Her first week home|
|1 month old, also Christmas Eve|
|4 Months Old|
|6 Months Old|
So if you don’t know me, well you missed my announcement that I have a little jellybean on the way!!! It’s so exciting, and will lead to lots of DIY posts as I put together the nursery, as well as mommyhood posts (sorry, it can’t be avoided). Blogging has clearly not been a priority, and the best I can promise at this point is sporadic posts, but there will be posts!
One of the reasons blogging has been such a low priority is that my first trimester was really hard. When I say that a lot of people assume I mean that I had horrible morning sickness, a la Duchess Catharine, but no, it was much more terrifying than that. My first trimester was full of fear. I’m hoping that by sharing my experience I can help support and encourage other first time mothers experiencing similar complications, and to provide hope that things can still be ok despite how bad they might look at the moment.
My husband and I were so excited when we found out, albeit a little surprised due to a false negative test a few days earlier. We were also cautious, that’s just how we are, but overall we really assumed things would be great with no issues. I am healthy, I exercise, eat well, I’m not yet at advanced maternal age, on the outside one would assume I would have a textbook, easy pregnancy.
Well, a few days in I experienced some light spotting. It was disconcerting, but I already knew that some spotting is common, my bigger concern was whether it would be a sign of more things to come. I called my doctor’s office the next day and they said it sounded within a safe and normal range, but if it increased to call back. Things went great for about a week, and then on a Sunday, Mother’s Day to be exact, I experienced even more spotting that just didn’t stop all day. The on-call doctor told me to call my doctor’s office in the morning, which I did and my doctor told me to come in the afternoon for a quick check (the spotting had not stopped yet).
At the office I received my first ultrasound, which showed things to be looking good, yay! Although I was measuring behind their estimate so another ultrasound was scheduled for the following week. The next week we went in, spotting had continued throughout, and more good news, the baby was growing on track compared to the previous scan with a heartbeat! My doctor located an area that he believed the spotting to be coming from, and indicated that it was not impacting the baby, more good news! At this point he informed me that he no longer does OB care and I would need to find an OB for the rest of the pregnancy.
After 2 1/2 weeks of continuous spotting, it finally stopped. This was a huge relief for me, I figured everything would be great now. I had my first OB appointment scheduled in 3 weeks, so all seemed to be back on track and going well again. A week later I was at work, I got up and went to the bathroom and discovered a lot of blood and I noticed I has having minor cramps. Visibly shaking I told my boss I needed to call my doctor and leave. She was wonderful and found a private place for me to call my doctor and started trying to call a cab to come pick me up. One the most frustrating parts of this particular experience was that I didn’t know which doctor to call, my GYN doesn’t do OB, and I hadn’t seen my OB yet. So I called my GYN’s office first, well at 8 weeks they would no longer see me, end of story. So I called my OB’s office and spoke with the nurse triage line. I explained that my GYN’s office wouldn’t see me, but that I hadn’t actually seen my OB yet, so I was told to go to the ER.
I got into a cab and my husband met me at the ER where he already had my check-in process started. Once at the ER I began to pass small clots as well. I will be honest, at this point I truly believed it was all over and my hope was starting to fade. It was a very long 6 hours total in the ER, but the early news was actually looking promising, the part that took so long was waiting for the ultrasound that would be able to detect if there was still a heartbeat. Finally we reached that moment, and my husband and I both held our breath, at first we could see the baby, but we didn’t see the flicker of a heart beating, and then a few seconds later it was there! I have never felt more relief and happiness in my entire life, I started bawling right then there and the tech had to ask me to calm down so I could stay still for the rest of the scan. When I left the ER the diagnosis I received was a threatened abortion, and the bleeding was coming from around the placenta. The doctors informed me that statistically the odds at miscarriage at that point with the bleeding were 50/50, although all of my results were very encouraging. This was tough news to swallow, but my husband and I left feeling very hopeful and knowing we’ve got a tough little jellybean growing.
I continued spotting after that incident for several days, but eventually it stopped. A week and a half after my ER visit I had my first appointment with my OB. It went great, we could actually see arms and legs and the little one even swam around for us, beyond amazing. I was given the news that everything looked really good and I could start resuming normal activities, at this point I had been on exercise restriction for about 5 weeks. We were both so excited and felt so much relief, unfortunately it was short lived.
Just 2 hours after getting home from my OB appointment, as we were deciding what special thing we wanted to do celebrate the great news, I again went to the bathroom only discover lots of blood and large clots. The first though in my head was “This can’t be happening,” we had JUST seen a healthy wiggly baby a few hours earlier. Of course it was just late enough that the doctor’s office was closed, so we had to call for the on-call doctor. Unfortunately, for some reason the on-call doctor never returned the call, luckily we have a wonderful friend who is an OB who happily talked to us on the phone and explained what we needed to watch for for the rest of the night to determine if the ER was necessary, and otherwise we could wait and call the office in the morning. So we ended up waiting until the morning.
I called the office immediately when their phone lines opened and was told to come in right away and they would do a scan for me. I’ll be honest, I was less concerned that we were losing at this point because of the previous scan, I was more worried about what kept causing these incidents. The scan again showed a healthy baby, and this time the tech did a thorough search and discovered 3 sub-chorionic hemorrhages. These were explained to me as bleeding that occurs between the placenta and the uterus. The doctor explained that there is nothing that can prevent these from occurring (and nothing I did that caused them), and there is no way to treat them, the only cure is time. I was told to try and take things easy and that my first trimester screening would also be an opportunity to reevaluate the bleeding, but to call back if another incident occurred.
I had two more incidents before my first tri screening, but luckily the hemorrhages have now completely healed, and I have been incident free for the longest stretch since 5 weeks into the pregnancy (I’m 15 now). I am now able to begin exercising once again and I finally feel like I can fully enjoy this pregnancy and be safely excited about everything yet to come.
My first trimester was full of fears, but my husband really helped me hold onto hope which got me through the worst days. Going through so much so early on helped us both develop a deep attachment to this baby very quickly. The experience also put a lot of things into a whole new perspective for me. There are so many things that I normally can get stressed or upset about day to day, but none of those things can hold a candle to the importance of having a healthy baby, and facing the fear that you may be losing that baby just shows you how trivial all of those other “important” things are.
My goal for the rest of this pregnancy is to try and be present in each moment, and to cherish each experience as much as possible. I feel like I owe that to myself, my husband, my baby, and especially to everyone out there who has had a similar experience and maybe didn’t have the happy outcome I have. I am lucky, and I know this and I appreciate it.
One of my favorite childhood books is The Secret Garden. As I was recently rereading it (it’s still as good at 29 as it was at 10) I kept thinking about how much I wish I could have a place to grow some plants of my own. I unfortunately do not have any outdoor space, no balcony, no outdoor window sills, nada. I have looked into community gardens in my area, and well, the waitlists are years long. So for the past several years I just haven’t had any plants, but I am determined to change this in the new apartment. While my outdoor space situation won’t be changing, I have come to the opinion that I just don’t care, I can still grow some things indoors. In past apartments I have managed to grow some potted herbs, and I really love being able to just pick some fresh basil or rosemary as I cook. And while my track record with basil is less than stellar, I always end up accidentally letting it flower thus killing the plant, it is actually cheaper to buy a whole new basil plant than it is to buy just a few leaves at the store. So I am currently brainstorming some ways to grow a few plants by the window, without completely blocking the light or making a jungle in that area. Here are some images that have my mind thinking.
So this little indoor garden is using Ikea step-stools, so creative! It’s clean, simple, and has a bit of rustic vibe. Plus, these stools are real wood so they can be restained!
Hi everyone! I know, I know, it’s been almost an entire month since the last post. Life has been insanely hectic, and I will be honest it’s not going to slow down much in the coming weeks. Some good news is that my photography business has had a tremendous start. The support and encouragement from everyone has been more than I could have dreamed of. I’ve also already surpassed my super low ball goal for the first year, so things can only go up from here. As a result my free time is currently full of sessions and editing, not much time for blogging. In addition, I don’t have many new projects to share right now because my apartment is full of moving boxes! Yup, my husband and I are moving into a new apartment soon!
Now we’re not cool enough to be buying something, and we’re not moving across country or anything, in fact we’re only moving 5 floors, but we will have a bigger space! So for now DIYing is on hold, HOWEVER this means I will soon have a whole new space to decorate! I fully intend to get back on the DIY train after the move which will hopefully get me back on the blogging train.
I don’t want to make promises I can’t keep, so all I will say is that the blog isn’t dead, but posting will be sporadic for a little longer. I will also add that with all of the transitions happening in my life, professionally and living space wise, the tone of the blog might shift a little. I’m in a much more DIY, artsy, decorating frame of mind these days so don’t be surprised to see more content along those lines when I do post. Thank you for those who continue to read and bare with me while I learn to juggle so many things. And here are a few iPhone photos to share some things I’ve been up to over the last month (and yes, some formatting is wonky here, but that’s blogger sometimes).
|Getting some inspiration and brainstorming ideas for some upcoming photo sessions with a cute new notebook from Paper Source|
|I might be 29 years old, but I still love to dye Easter eggs|
|My new favorite magazine, Click, check it out|
|Editing some lovely, sweet newborn photos|
|Continuing my knitting and crochet hobbies when time permits|
I am generally a product loyalist. This means that when I find something that works I stick with it until it no longer works for me, which is usually many years. As result I don’t have experience with many different brands so I’m not great at comparing. However I figured I should start giving reviews of the brands and products I do love. I’m actually going to start with a new discovery. I get samples through Birchbox (check it out if you haven’t heard of it), and having very fine, limp hair I have been looking for a product to help add body and volume for years, with little success. This past month my Birchbox included a sample of Ojon Volume Advance Thickening Spray, and oh my I am in LOVE!
|Ojon Volume Advance Thickening Spray|
|Loft Sunwashed Tee|
|Loft Sunwashed Tee|
|GAP Rugby Stripe Roll-Sleeve Tee|
|J.Crew Vintage Cotton Tee|
|Loft Linen Tee|
*** The East Coast Creative contest is still going on, please go here and click on entry #200, you can click more than once if you really want to, and if you’re feeling super generous take another second to click on entry #214 for my friend over at Gypsy Soul***
I promise things will begin to get back to normal posting around here, although there might be times when things pick up too much and posts will slow down again. That’s the unfortunate price for not being able to just be a full time photographer and blogger, a girl can dream though. One thing that has not stopped during this little posting interlude, spring catalogs are flooding my mailbox. It is depressing, I admit, to see the beautiful warm weather fashions and then step out the door to blistering cold wind. However, I have noticed a fun, colorful trend this year that doesn’t depend on the temperature, clutches! I’m seeing them all over the catalogs, in fun bright styles. Here are my five favorites of the moment, I hope they brighten your cold Monday!
|Ann Taylor Envelope Clutch|
|Ann Taylor Foldover Napa Leather Clutch|
|LL Bean Signature Heritage Leather Clutch|
|GAP Leather Envelope Clutch|
|Banana Republic Patent Clutch|
Yesterday was the last holiday until Memorial day comes in May, man that’s a long stretch of no breaks. Instead of quickly throwing a blog post together, I decided to use the day to relax a little, at least that was my original plan. I started my morning by working on my photography website, I had set a deadline to have it ready to launch by this coming Friday. I have been working on this website, and the blog component that goes with it for about 3 weeks now. After an hour or two of work yesterday morning I looked it over and realized that it was done! So, being the impatient person that I am I launched everything early yesterday afternoon. Yes, Heather Raeburn Photography LLC is up and running! It’s a dream come true for me.
I’m still scared and nervous about failing, but honestly I am also really proud of myself for trying. I took the time to inventory my life and figure out what seemed to be missing, and rather than just sitting back and wishing, I’ve turned a big dream into a reality. I am so excited to be on this journey now, I can’t wait to see where it takes me.
Also, don’t forget to go over to East Coast Creative and click on entry #200 (you can do this more than once), and if you’re feeling really into showing some blog love also give a click to entry #214 for my friend over at Gypsy Soul.
So now, I encourage all of you to figure out what you really want in life and then go make it happen!
***Don’t forget to go to East Coast Creative and click on entry number 200! You can click more than once.***
The first time I ever tried making turkey burgers was honestly less than great, the burgers came out dry and tasteless. I wanted a burger, but I wanted it to be light and lean. So, not knowing what I was doing I just bought some ground turkey, and made simple burger patties out of it and cooked them in a pan on the stove top, exactly the way I would have cooked a ground beef burger. That right there was the mistake, because turkey is so lean and needs to be cooked all the way through all of the fat cooks out long before it’s done drying out the final product. It was a long time before I was willing to try again, but eventually I searched around the Internet and realized I needed to find a way to add moisture and flavor and eventually I developed this recipe.
I know some people really don’t like looking at raw poultry, especially in ground form so there aren’t as many pictures with this recipe. Also, you will notice sweet potato fries on the plate in the pictures, I am still perfecting that recipe so I’m not sharing it today, but eventually I will I promise.
1lb Ground Turkey Meat (I buy 99% lean)
1 Small Onion
2-3 Tbs Chunky Salsa (make sure it’s a chunky kind and that it’s fairly wet)
2 Tbs Olive Oil
Dice the small onion. Make a well in the center of the ground turkey, add the onion and salsa, mix together. The mixture will be fairly mushy. Form the mixture into patties, for 1lb of meat I make 4 patties. Dust both sides of the patties with the chili powder.
Heat olive oil in large skillet over medium heat. Once heated add the patties. Cook on one side until sides begin to firm, flip. Continue cooking for several minutes on each side and flipping. To cook all the way through takes about 20-30 minutes.